Heart Check!

Have you ever wondered if a male or female had the same attraction to you as you have to them? Are you creating in your own mind emotional relationships that lead to marriage or union in dating that only you know and a select few know about? Are you focused more on those thoughts than the thoughts from above? (Colossians 3:2)

 

Let me tell you that you are no different than thousands of people struggling or giving into this temptation. We are wired as human being to have a longing and a desire to be loved. This desire can easily turn into a long journey of heartache and open doors that should remain closed.

 

Recently (the last 13 months), I have had to beat emotional desires down with the Word of God. The thoughts and emotions were coming so rapidly that I knew and have known that it is/was an attack from the enemy. Especially since I knew that the brother had absolutely no desire for me accept to be my brother (We previously had the just brother and sister talk to make sure no false signals were being sent (Proverbs 18:22). If you are struggling in this area, sometimes it is good just to ask the question so you know how to attack it).

 

It is a long and hard journey to remain emotionally and sexually set apart and pure. Most people do not see the value in it. The world encourages us to engage in relationships and flirting constantly. When one becomes pregnant out of wedlock they asked how? (The sin is in the sex not the child). When marriages fall apart they make excuses. When homosexuals begin to desire to display their sin openly they wonder where they all came from. When domestic violence happens in the home they looked shocked (even when the world promotes violence more than clean air).

 

Brothers and Sisters I am petitioning you to fight the good fight of emotional purity. We must address the problems of our hearts that cause us to desire and long for men and women who are not our husbands or wives. For so many years we have engaged in pornography, seen dysfunctional relationships and sexual relationships for monetary gain etc. Our past must be cleaned up so that God can get the glory out of our lives.

 

For that last 4 years I have not engaged in any sexual activity (not even a kiss) but my ride to emotional purity has been a hard journey. It is easy to give your body away and keep your emotions detached in the beginning. It is harder to take a stand and say I will keep my heart pure towards men and women so that when my husband arrives I will be emotionally clean. But more so I will love the Lord my God with all my heart, mind and soul (Matthew 22:37).

 

I ask you how many people have you dated or tried to pursue in a relationship in the last year? How many people have you engage in emotional impurity with openly and behind the windows of your heart. Have you taken the time to clean yourself from all those broken relationships past and present? Are you looking at women’s outward appearance to decide whether or not you want to pursue them (men)? (1 Samuel 16:7, Proverbs 30:31)  Are you looking at men’s outward appearance desiring for them to pursue you, ladies? (1 Samuel 16:7; 1 Corinthians 15:32-34) Have you asked God where are the places emotionally that you need to clean? If not ask Him, Jesus will show you the areas that need to be cleaned before you continue in the pursuit of marriage.

 

We are all longing to be loved by someone we can call our own. However, we are looking for love in all the wrong places and faces. We must first turn our hearts and affections to the Lord Jesus. He is the only one that can fulfill those desires. No man or woman in this world or the one to come can love you the way Jesus loves you. He was destined since the beginning of time to the lover of your soul (Psalm 143:8). Look to Him to be complete. (John 4: 1-26) 

Debut Project!

DOWNLOAD THE ALBUM FREE NOW! SELF EXAMINATION.....ITS FIRST DAY OUT! GLORY 2 GOD!

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A new prayer of life

Steve Fry opened my eyes to an important truth. For the last 4 years I have been asking you Lord to give a heart for prayer. I’ve been praying the wrong prayer. Prayer is an extension of our dependency on You and desire for You. So today Lord I ask that You give me a desire and thirst for YOU!

Psalm 42: 1-2, Matthew 5:6

Taking a dive

Ok, so I will be taking a dive in a little photography. Definitely not looking to make it a profession. I actually have an idea to mix film and photography so I am going to try it out :) Since my mom took over my 7.2 megapixel consumer camera. I figured no reason to go back and buy another. So I took an amateur stab. Got the Canon Rebel XT great cnet.com reviews. I hope to give you all some great shots from my journey. Oh plus, Bro. O can teach me some stuff :)

P/S The Semester is completely finished!

So exhausted!

Ok. So I am running off of pure grace. I kind of did it to myself. But the semester is over in 8 days and I will be on the grind of learning and examining myself this summer. Oh plus a lot of road trips, beach visits and just going out and ministering to people. I wanna do some freestyle evangelism on the corners this summer. I pray I can BEAT THE BLOCK! Haha yaaaaa. The Jesus way. There has been a lot of reflection for me on the previous albums....a lot of growth has taken place and a lot mistakes that I made scriptural and content wise. But that's all apart of growing. ;) Just wanted to do a post. Back to work!

Why will it be free?

I have been going through a lot of changes with in myself. I have to had to address my character like never before in the last 18 months. God is truly giving me a heart after Him. I have had to disconnect myself from almost all of the people that I once had relationships with (some walking with Christ faithfully, some walking carnal and some that just had to go). It hurt every single time and continues to hurt but something I am learning is that LORD I love them even far away.

I have fallen in love with celebrities, middle class people, all different cultures, poor people, holy people JUST EVERY one. I am not concerned with all the other things I was concerned with I just want to love people, serve them and see their lives changed through the love of GOD! This album is free because I want you to give it away....see how God has caused me to self-examine myself and the things around me....which I pray will help you do the same. I am giving it away because God gave it to me to give away. I kept the budget low by doing everything myself so now I want you all to fall in love with Jesus with tracks like "God Knew You", "Kingdom Run", "I Give You Praise", "Who's Boss", "Been Thru".

Simply put I just want you to self examine yourself so that you can see how far away from God you are but how close He wants you to be....you don't have to remain far....He wants you to come close. But we must first know that we are nothing, will be nothing and will do nothing that last unless it is in Christ that we have our total dependency. So on June 1st I pray you all examine yourself as I will continue to examine myself.

Proverbs 8:17 I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me.

John 13:1 It was just before the Passover Feast. Jesus knew that the time had come for him to leave this world and go to the Father. Having loved his own who were in the world, he now showed them the full extent of his love

Hopeless In Myself

This week I have really realized I am nothing with in myself. For so many years I lived off the pride of my talent. I love God and thank God's self that I don't have the desire to live off my own strength anymore, though it creeps up. He has give us the Holy Spirit to be able to resist. It's all because of the Triune God that we are all here today. Though this world is dark and lonely and we look people in their faces and see them dying daily, we still hold onto the hope of His grace. Imagine life without God in this world. Complete and total chaos but yo He still loves us in our wickedness and desires for us to come closer to Him. Who cares about our problems He still loves us and He can fix them. I want more of His love so I can be known as one who loves like God loves in His image. This was becayse of my meditation of (Pslam 103 and 1 Cor 1-4 this week)

Love u all,
C.Faith

Self-Examination

Self-Examination:
So it has been a long time coming. People have been asking me for new material since 2006. I have not been entirely on the low. I have been recording, producing, writing and simply perfecting my craft in the limited amount of time that I have. I am not really calling this an album call it a album, EP, Mixtape whateva ya want to call it....it's free. I will be releasing a compilation of songs that I have been recording throughout the last two years. It's more for the people and myself hence the title "Self-Examination" like Trip Lee said, "We need a self-examination". Some of it is about me, some of it is about you and some of it is about all of us. I have worked with about a good 20 people to put this FREENESS together. I love all them that they truly allowed God to use them in a mighty way. So I produced, recorded and wrote probably 93% of the album. It really had nothing to due with me there was a need many couldn't fill it so where they were weak I became strong and where I was weak they became strong. So I am finishing the mixing, recording and writing this month. So please keep this FREENESS in prayer. It is a FREE work of love if you did not catch that yet lol.

Nickey's Flesh Update:
This book is like a baby that is taking years to be birthed lol. So I will be finishing the last 120 pages this month as well. It sounds like a lot but it really isn't. I have the chapters mapped out. This book has been going through all kinds of changes because as God reveals things to me within me, the Body of Christ and the world I get more Ideas about how to convey this needed message.

Nickey's Flesh will be in play format in July 2008. The play will be a play and a elegant Jamaican Cuisine (If and when brother George and Sis. Steph agrees :) fundraiser for our church building fund. I am excited because one of the brothers at the Seminary reminded me to tape it. YEAAAA! You all don't know God is working something in me through this process. So I will keep you all updated on that.

Nigerian Radio Project:
We are still collecting CD'S....Please give your new or old Christian CD's of any genre to this project. You all are going to have an important impact in the media industry in Nigerian by donating your CD's to one of the first Christian radio stations in Nigeria!

Seminary:
See now I don't think you all are praying for me. LOL! No but for real 4 more weeks till this semester is a thing of the past. It has been really changing in regards to staying grounded in the faith because of all the heresy I have been learning about. But it has been rewarding and I am now more encouraged and AMPED! Than ever before to complete this M.DIV./MBA. 4 more years lol. 2 down.....4 to go if I continue going part-time. I pray not :)

ChristinaFaith.com and Myspace.com/ChristinaFaith0317

Have been completely been designed and filled with life changing resources and just love :) I think I am going to get that incredible young woman of God Dari...Genius to redesign the blog as well. HEHE :) We shall see..


OK enough of all that I truly love you all and I am praying for a revival in the BODY OF CHRIST and those who will entire the Kingdom of God because of our own SELF-EXAMINATION so that we can be a UNITED KINGDOM as the Triune GOD designed and destined us to be!

Examining myself,

Christina Faith

Being healed

Don't worry I haven't forgot about ya'll. I was sick recently but I am really about to start sending some stuff out to you all soon. I think we will start with a podcast and see how that goes.

I love you all. See you soon hopefully by His grace.

Hey are there any topics that you would like to discuss or things that you would like to know about Christina Faith (don't be afraid to ask)

Grace and Kingdom,

Christina Faith

Random Freestyle

Give them what they want
Don’t become who they are
I thought I told you
I used to want to be a superstar
Drive around in fancy cars
I just wanna become who I areeee

Its been a while

So yea it has been a while. I have fallen off on writing and making music mostly. I have been working 70 hour weeks. At first it was to buy the house then it was to knock down debit which I definitely have. The car and students are the last. I have to knock down the logos and some stupid $500 bill but its cool God has brought me a mighty long way from being 8G's in consumer debt. Yea I officially have no consumer debt but that stinking lovely car that I enjoy. So I have been growing up in Christ lately its been hard because dude this flesh has to DIE! I am getting back on my writing (Nickey's Flesh 120 pages to go), music (the album 5 more songs to go), and I think I will be working on a building a band and a cartoon with one of the band mates. I am excited but I need to budget more and use more time management. Hence, the lack of blog respect (hehe). Ohh the website is almost done thanx to Iquan whatcha think check the mock out.

Oh I recently picked up the guitar and that thang is like therapy to me. I definetly have to schedule music in more. Yea that was a big side note haha!

Macbook Air...I don't wanna be a tech whore!

Ok, so I know that the title is a bit of a shocked. But there is a thing called a tech whore. In my line of business on forums we consistently remind ourselves that it is very possible to buy gear in a "whore manner". We want it just to have it with no purpose. I consistently fight that battle when it comes to gadgets, music equipment and books (sometimes my flesh wins). Those are my favorite areas of spending. Oh yea, let's not forget music. So I have been reading up on the Macbook Air. It looks so cool but that's about it. There is no speed to it and it's size is really not very work flow efficient. The size causes you to attach items to it that normally would be in the laptop. I would advise people not to buy it. Yes it's cute! Yes it's revolutionary! Yes it's mac but for me. I am going to pass. If I am going to drop $1800 bucks. I will be getting a Macbook Pro (which is incredibly attractive and on my list).

So how does this tie into scripture? I know you didn't think I was gonna write a blog without talking bout my DADDY. It's like Proverbs 6:25 says, "Do not lust in your heart after her beauty or let her captivate you with her eyes," This applies to a woman but I apply it to technology. Don't lust after technology or let it captivate you because it can stir you to sin and or idolatry. Remember there will always be something new. In the Kingdom we should go for what is "PURPOSEFUL", not always what is fly.

Sista Gadger,
CHRISTina FAITH

My brother, My brother, My brother (Guard Your Sisters)

So we took a two day break. Let's get back to emotional purity. What I have learned is that emotional purity is mind purity. Brothers (meaning any male) you have gotten a bad wrap throughout time, especially if your ancestors were involved in any form of slavery on either side.

It's hard out there for a brother....when you are used to not knowing how to treat women. Brother's you are in charge of guarding our hearts. If you see a female falling for you or sending signals, cut it off at the head. We know you like the attention, we do too, but you as a man know from the gate what your intentions are. Let them be known. If you do not desire to marry the woman, leave her alone completely if she is sending signals. Or learn how to be the sister's friend with no other motive but to love her as a sister.

I was once told women date hoping the man will marry them, men date knowing they will marry that woman. You know your intentions. Be honest, respectful and compassionate.

Many brothers do not know how to treat a woman with respect, dignity and honor because they were never taught how to. How do we know? If someone says something about your female family member, you are ready to fight. But if someone makes a disrespectful comment about a woman that you do not know you are ready laugh.

Brothers you have to step your game up to guard not only your emotions but our emotions as well. Relationships are not simply about having someone when you need or want them. They are about changing your lives and the lives of those around you.

As a brother before you should even consider a woman you need to have a clean heart, finances in order and already working the vision that God has for your life. (Ladies if he is not doing these things back away.) It is a terrible thing to enter into a relationship and have to depart because you do not have your heart, emotions, spiritual life and vision in order.

Brother's search for a wife and not simply a girlfriend, desire to leave a legacy of a long healthy prosperous marriage and not simply a baby mama (No condemnation if you already have children).

In order to apply this information, you have to be real with yourself. Are you ready for a wife? Are you still struggling with lust, masturbation, former heartache, abusive tendencies, comparing every woman to the other women in your life etc? Brothers get your heart right so that he that findeth a wife can cover the wife that the Lord has given. Brother's if you are not right with God and living according to His word, your entire family will be off balance you are the head and the covering of the family. Be an example not a hindrance to the plan of God for you and your future/current family.
Loving my brothers,
CHRISTina FAITH

Focus verses:
Psalm 119:10
I seek you with all my heart; do not let me stray from your commands.
Psalm 139:23
Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.
Colossians 3:12-14
12Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity

Let Him find you

So ladies, let us speak about being the pursued. I know from personal experience we live in a "New Age" that holds strong to the concept of independent women. There used to be a time when the woman was the one pursued but now we have no problem "hollering" at the man. We see something we want and we do what we need to do to get it. So we pursue the brothers. When we do this we take away purpose from the man. He was created to find us. Not the other way around. Many of us have quoted, "He that findeth a wife findeth a good thing" (Proverbs 18:22) but we forget the latter half of the verse "he obtains favour from the Lord". Ladies we have to raise our standards. When your husband finds you, he obtains favour from the Lord. Wow! We are that special to God that when our husbands find us they get an extra bonus from God.

Let us learn to be pursued. Men by nature are hunters. They were created to find us and provide. We were created to be helpmates to them. You know the two become one. Now I am not saying be a housewife (unless that is your calling) but we have to know our positions. Let us learn to be dependent on God that our "independence" as single women does not harm our relationships in the future. We are so important to God that He wants the men to search us out like the treasures that we are.

Learning to be pursued,

CHRISTina FAITH

P.s. brothers I got something for you all tomorrow.

Why wait? Why not date?

Good afternoon all,

So the emotional purity topics have been hitting home. Many have asked questions and made comments about how the messages have been helpful and encouraging.

Let's talk about waiting instead of dating. What is dating? Dating is the world’s alternative for courtship. I like to describe dating as “testing the waters…without a defined yes of getting married in the near future (not 5-10 year from now)”. Dating allows you to sample the product. See if you want it. Play with it and send it back. If and when it does not meet all of your standards or there’s it’s time to go. Dating is a easy way to say I am feeling you, “I love you” or I like you but your not worth marrying to me or I am not ready now. If you are not ready, stay out of the kitchen. Dating heightens your chance for divorce as well. When you date and leave you develop low tolerance for staying committed in a relationship. You get used to breaking up. Which is “divorce” without papers.

Courtship says, “I just want what God has for me and I am welling to put in a life time of commitment to obtain what God has”. I personally have decided to “WAIT”. Now let’s not get it twisted more than a couple of brother’s have tried to court me. But I refuse to settle for “less” than what lines up with the promises of God. During my wait God has raised my standards. I don’t fall for the “okey doke” anymore. I almost feel a couple times because of impatience and lust of the eyes.

So today let us wait on the Lord for our mate and everyday remind ourselves. I am waiting because I am worth the wait. Not just sexually but emotionally as well. Dr. Ron Rannikar author of Choosing God’s Best stated, “It takes faith and courage to wait on God, “Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord’ (Psalm 27:14). Waiting for the Lord means pausing for further instructions…God always saves His best for those who are willing to wait for it” (28-29).

Loving you all,
Christina Faith

P.S. post your questions in the group or message me. Please invite your friends to the group on facebook CHRISTina FAITH Supporters ☺

You say He/She is just a friend

So I was thinking. I see a lot of females with male “friends”. Ladies we should be evaluating these relationships. We should talk to the brothers about these relationships so that we do not begin to replace our “friendship” with “invisible” companionship. At times we can use our male friends and female friends as substitutes for what we truly desire in a mate. We start hanging out, talking on the phone late nights and thinking about each other haphazardly. Be mindful not to enter into “invisible” relationship with people of the opposite sex and or same sex. By doing this we damage our relationships, hearts and emotions. Define the relationship if this is the case. Put boundaries in place to you’re your emotional purity. Check out emotionalpurity.blogspot.com on more information about maintaining emotional purity. It’s not enough just to be physically pure we must be emotionally pure.

Love ya,
CHRISTina FAITH

"WOW it is so easy to become emotionally attached to people"

Over the last two months I have had to check my motives and interactions with two brothers in Christ in particular. As time went on I realized that I was in danger of attaching myself emotionally too them. Nothing to deep but I would find my mind wandering towards them. As I immediately attacked those thoughts and casted them down keeping my thoughts fixed on Christ. I realized WOW it is so easy to become emotionally attached to people you are physically, mentally and spiritually attracted to. Are you practicing emotional purity? Are you daydreaming about someone in particular? Are you investing time, energy and prayers for the wrong reasons? Are you flirting to get attention? Are you doing things specially for this person that you wouldn't do for another? If you are, check those things at the gate...you are living an emotionally impure life.

Let us not commit emotional adultery, incest nor fornication. By developing unhealthy relationship in our minds or in the physical with people we know do not feel the same way about us nor desire to enter into courtship that leads to marriage. Press to keep your emotions pure!

Colossians 3:2 (New International Version)
Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.

Kingdom First Media Internship

Kingdom First Media Internship Program!

We at KFM have been designing an unbelievable internship program for the last 4 years. Many hours of sweat, tears and prayer have been put into this project. We desire to create an unbelievable experience for both the company and its interns. We believe, "This internship will revolutionize, not just your resume but your LIFE".
Our Mission is to "Bring Integrity Back to the Media". We are asking that you forward this email to all those whom you know are interested in media so that we can be one step closer to fulfilling our mission. Please email Info@KingdomFirstMedia.com
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Thank you,
Kingdom First Media


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New Music from CHRISTina FAITH!

These songs are near and dear to my heart. I pray that you enjoy them and they bring change and meditation in your life. Remember no matter how rough it is, what you have "BEEN THRU" or how "THIRSTY" you are for God; He is always there with His Promise waiting for you to seek FIRST the KINGDOM of GOD and all its righteousness (goodness). These are songs from my new album "The Promise". They are not the first singles, they are sample songs from the album :). The First Single "Knew You" will be released soon ;)

Scroll down to listen to NEW MUSIC "BEEN THRU" featuring April Monet Produced by CHRISTina FAITH and co-written by Anthony Moore and CHRISTina FAITH and "THIRSTY" Produced by ArchAngel and CHRISTina FAITH written by CHRISTina FAITH. The songs are also for sale at $.99 a song, if you have any feedback I would love to hear it. Please feel free to forward this email to everyone you know at the bottom.

Love,
CHRISTina Faith
Kingdom First Media, LLC.

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Happy New Year from Kingdom First Media

Dear Brothers and Sisters,

Wishing you every happiness this Holiday Season and prosperity in the New Year. Thank you for being our brothers and sisters in Christ and faithful consumers. We look forward to continuing our relationship in the coming year.

We Pray:

That in this new year that we will allow Christ to invade our hearts allowing Him to change us from the inside out. We pray that this is not just another year. It is our hearts desire to see the visions, talents and spiritual gifts in your lives begin to flourish for the edification of the body of Christ, redemption of the lost and glorification of the Triune God.

This year therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day (year by year). For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. (2 Corinthians 4 4:16-18 NIV)

Therefore this year pick of your cross and go. For the world is waiting and travailing for the coming of Christ and spreading of the good news. Be about our Father's business.

Thanking God for You all,
Kingdom First Media

UPCOMING RELEASES AND EVENTS

The Unveiling of KingdomFirstMedia.com and CHRISTinaFAITH.COM in the winter of 2008.


The Release of "Nickey's Flesh" a fictional novel about a 18 year old choir director and gospel singer in the Spring of 2008.

Our Price: $ 9.95
List Price: $14.95

The Release of CHRISTina FAITH's third album "The Promise and The Grind" in the Spring/Summer of 2008.
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List Price: $14.95
Digital Download: $ 5.95

Second Annual "TakeOva" Youth Conference and Conference in the summer of 2008.

*Dates are subject to change with the leading of the Holy Spirit. Please keep us in prayer as we are faithful over the few things that God has given. We pray that we can be accountable and sensitve to the Holy Spirit and kill all selfish ambition as we spread the gospel through Media.